realization....

in the short time we've known each other, we were best friends. I feel like i've known her forever. But now we are so far apart it makes me cry. She acts like we're ok, but i know we aren't. She ignores me and you've probably already heard the story...
My mom made a good point to me though: You only keep in touch with a small handful of friends after high school.
when she first told me this, i panicked and thought about how many good friends i have. If I only get to keep in touch with a handful, that means i lose track of all of my other friends. I can't even imagine it. But i'm trying to focus on the positiveness of this...positiveness? i haven't even found that yet. this probably doesnt make sense, but oh well. i'm really thinking about high school asnd how im never going to be able to talk to all of my great friends or see anyone. I;m never going to make it i think to myself. but i'll try. there's alot of errors in this but i dont care..im tired.
I'm starting to find out who my true friends are and i keep coming to this thought. My very best friedn in the whole world is Janay Sharp, but also Wendy Bradford. And that's where i get confused. I've know wendy my whole life (literally), but i've only know janay for a little over a year. How can i be closer to Janay? You would think that since i've known wendy my whole life that i would be closest to her...but it's weird. whatever. i guess it doesnt matter.
im just rambling now. blecgh.