i'm not doin so great these days. I'm pretty sad right now for two reasons. The main reason is, my grandma had a heart attack the other day and since then things have gotten really hard. But also we planned a holiday world trip with me, maddie, wendy, taylor, mallory, and tyler. But i had to stay with my brother while my mom was at the hospital today.
And now i just feel like crying. Things are stressful.
And, lulu won't be here for my birthday. And things never work out like they should these days no matter how thouroughly i plan. I don't want to sound all complainer-like.
But, yah know.
i hate answering the home phone because i know none of the people calling our house are calling for me or else they would call my cell. But earlier my mom had said while i'm out, Val might call. So im just like yea ok. Then after she left the phone rang and a man said "hello, jenifer?" And i said "no, it's lauren. Is this Val?" And the guy was like "Uh, No. I have the wrong number." And you don't even care, haha. pointless story. Hmm, i want to hang out with people. It feels like i haven't done that in a while. But whatever.
Much love.
Well, first. I had a wonderful time with my cheetalicious friend, Laura on Friday. That was a darn funny time when i honked at that jeep while we were at the park and he CHASED us but not really im just being dramatic. Hhaha, what creeper actually turns around when someone honks at them.
Turns out me and lulu are more alike than we even knew, which is awesome. I'm so glad that i have found a friend who shares the near exact same likes and dislikes as me.
Holiday world with the diva crew on Friday. I am pumped. Its gonna be a great time, despite that obstacle me and Maddie talked about. :) It's all good, though.
Also, I really wish i didn't like twilight. But i do, and i can't help it. No matter how much i understand how overdone and how popularly annoying it is, i still can't help but get excited for the New Moon movie in November.
But, i guess it doesn't matter. I love my divalicious supermodel friends :)
oh, and I'm reading Glass by Ellen Hopkins. It's one of those Crank books.
Anyone read those and how do you like them?
goodbye.
I just really thought it was necessary to dedicate this blog to my new best friend, La Cassidy. I love that girl. She is just the most dad-gum amazing person evaa! And she doesn't even know how cool she is! Lulu, you are just great and don't let nobody tell you otherwise!! You are a great person. Don't EVER let anyone be mean to you. If they do, go tell a teacher or the principal they will help you. You are a supermodel friend and you are beautiful no matter what everyone tells you. Remember this, kitties rule boys drool. Just believe in yourself that's more than enough so go on and live you dream. You've got nerve and remember, life's what you make it so lets make it ROCK! You are a fashionable smart glamorous woman. You have the chance to shine! So don't ever, ever, EVER be afraid to shake it! I already told you this. But that's okay. It is just critical that you keep that in your mind and heart all the time.
Much love, girl.
I avoid this blog most times. my posts are always repetitive. Soooo. School is out in 4 days, yo and i am pumped. I really want to go to Holiday World with Madison. My best friend. Charley Triplett is a lying hoe-bag. She spread a rotten rumor about Madison. And i don't like it one bit. glerfyyyy. i want to watch a movie with my ffamily. byee. :)
so school is out in 17 or so days! woohoo! that's all great and such. i cant wait for that last day to finally be here! i say that now, but i promise you that about 3 weeks into summer break, I'll be missing school. haha. yea. but, for now, i can't wait for school to be out!
me and megan made up like 2 weeks ago. chyeaa. how overused is that? chyeaa....
ok, so anyways thats basically it and im oh so very glad the me and megatron made up. :P
Im sick and tired of megan being depressed, changing moods every 5 minutes (literally), and then acting like its my fault. Ive probably said this a million times before and didnt mean it. But this time i sware. Im done with her.
whores are ridiculous. by definition, a whore is a prostitute. So i guess the word i really want to use is slut. sluts are ridiculous. by definition, a slut is someone who is sexually promiscuous. And i am giving a lot of definitions. enough of that. Sluts are, in my opinion, overly flirtatious girls who crave attention and think love is a joke. Who would like a slut? Well, surprisingly enough, most everyone loves sluts. But i do not. And you are probably wondering why i am writing about this...but you will just have to ask me because i would rather not say right now. You most likely all ready know why, though. Gahh. Sluts are terrible.
that every time i write a blog, i am realizing something. even this blog is a realization. a realization about realizing things....
hah. wow, i need to get a life.
in the short time we've known each other, we were best friends. I feel like i've known her forever. But now we are so far apart it makes me cry. She acts like we're ok, but i know we aren't. She ignores me and you've probably already heard the story...
My mom made a good point to me though: You only keep in touch with a small handful of friends after high school.
when she first told me this, i panicked and thought about how many good friends i have. If I only get to keep in touch with a handful, that means i lose track of all of my other friends. I can't even imagine it. But i'm trying to focus on the positiveness of this...positiveness? i haven't even found that yet. this probably doesnt make sense, but oh well. i'm really thinking about high school asnd how im never going to be able to talk to all of my great friends or see anyone. I;m never going to make it i think to myself. but i'll try. there's alot of errors in this but i dont care..im tired.
I'm starting to find out who my true friends are and i keep coming to this thought. My very best friedn in the whole world is Janay Sharp, but also Wendy Bradford. And that's where i get confused. I've know wendy my whole life (literally), but i've only know janay for a little over a year. How can i be closer to Janay? You would think that since i've known wendy my whole life that i would be closest to her...but it's weird. whatever. i guess it doesnt matter.
im just rambling now. blecgh.
everyone's life seemed so perfect and happy until....i got a blog.
i never would have realized how many troubles my friends go through, especially my best friend, until i got this blog. I almost feel like I'm invading other people's important privacy while I'm reading their blogs, and i almost think about stopping this...but then i don't. What is the point of this? Nobody ever reads it. Nobody ever understands anybody else's blog. So this is basically just like a published diary. Now that I'm thinking about it even more, i really am invading other peoples privacy when i read their blogs, and they are invading my privacy when they read mine. But why doesn't anyone ever care? Wouldn't you care if i walked into your house and just started to read your personal diary/journal? Is this no different??
so, yea. spring break is cool. and i went shopping with janay last night! and the first picture, thats the ring i got. its very hot. and ignore my stupid little hand. and the second picture is janay incase you didnt know her.
so yea, and tomorrow im leaving to go to nashville with wendy and aunt kendra and grandmom! this will be a good ol blast!
so yea thats it.
if you were starving to death in a room full of food you weren't allowed to eat?
if you had been walking for days nonstop pushing a wheelchair you weren't allowed to sit on?
if you were in a room of your most favorite things, but you weren't allowed to play with them?
if you were in a room full of anesthetic during surgery, but you weren't allowed to use any?
these are all examples of how i feel on lovely, spring days such as these. you see, i live in an unnaturally small neighborhood where EVERY resident is over 35 (besides their children of course, which are all no older than 5). it's like hell. i can't go on adventures, i can't ride my bike around, and i can't be loud. and even if i could do any of these, there is nobody here to enjoy them with.
this one time, some of our snooty neighbors were walking around the neighborhood (it was a nice summer day) and they came up to our door and rang the bell. my mom answered the door to see them with a worried look in their expression. they immediately said: "Did you know your son is outside??" (Alex used to go outside by himself and play in our yard.) My mom replied, expecting him to be running around in the streets and in other people's yards,"Oh i'm so sorry! I'll get him inside." After they left, my mom began searching around, to find out that he had only been playing in our fenced in courtyard minding his own business.
so when all of my friends are playing outside together, enjoying this beautiful day, i'm cooped up inside this stupid old house. I cant wait to move.
like i said, nothing is really going on these days....EXCEPT!!!!!
I am sorry for the things i sad and/or did. i just got angry. anyways, you said you dont wanna talk about it anymore, and i agree. but im so glad we made up! :)
school is just now starting to be ok. i'm starting to make more friends. i'm starting to feel more comfortable in this new environment. i thought i had this one great friend....but thats falling to pieces. we were the perfect friends. we wore the same clothes style, we listened to all the same music, our thought process was almost the same, we were always so random all the time. like i said, we were the perfect friends...or so i thought. these days she never smiles anymore, her sense of humor has gone dry, she doesnt know how to take a joke, and we never see eye to eye on things. i thought everything was perfect. but now we're arguing more than ever. right when everything is starting to ease up on me...my grades are getting better, we are 95% of the way recovered from the losses of loved ones. and then this has to pop up out of nowhere and happen. i thought i had a new best friend. but things had to go and change so sudddenly.
yea im really bored. this morning had been ok. Except i woke up and saw that i had fallen asleep with the t.v. on and i had left my contacts in. I want to go to the mall with Janay. But i got grounded because i woke on wednesday morning at 7:00, and i couldnt get ready in time, and if i was late, i would get demerits. And i can't get anymore demerits.
Anyway, i found out a job that i might be interested in doing. Being a recreational therapist sounds pretty fun. But then my mom told me they make less than a teacher. But then she suggested that i get a major in occupational therapy and a minor in recreational. That sounds pretty good to me. I'm still not so sure where i want to go to college though. But i have to go to college in indiana, because we are doing that 21st century scholars thing. yea.....
This morning i woke up and had bad cramps and my stomach hurt pretty bad, so i had to stay home from school. Right now, i'm just working on my science fair scientific report. I don't understand how to do the report...but oh well. So I'm just in bed bein bored and stuff. I hope Megan rides my bus anyways so my mom can pick her up. But i doubt she will.....
Nothing to interesting has been oging on around my place, just the usual. I'm ONLY supposed to use the computer for homework today, so i'm gonna go before i get in trouble. so yea....
Why is it that every time i have plans to stay home from school, we have a snow day.
On MLK Day, my mom was going to let me stay home because i slept in, and then today i am ill and i was gonna stay home anyway and then it snowed.
Well yes. I am sick. And whose fault is that...Wendy Bradford!! haha, just kidding.
but yea. i got her sickness germs. BLECH.
So now its a snow day, i should be having fun or something but im sick in bed.
i guess it doesn't really matter, though, anyway. Since i hate snow. It is cold and wet and not fun to play in.
I am having some strange side effects from this sickness, also. Like the constant smell of gas stations, truck driver, and stale cigarette smoke in my nose. Its not pleasant at ALL. The smell is actually making me feel light headed and it gave me a headache.
But, that's basically it.
Today hasn't been a very eventuful day.
I stayed home because i am sick. But i am feeling better now!
I woke up around 9ish and had to get ready to go to the doctor with my mother. After we went to the doctor, i was going to go get my glasses from my optometrist, but they weren't ready yet. I was quite sad. But they will be ready on Monday!! Then we had to go to Sam's Club and get groceries. And i got some delicious Cheese Balls!!! That was basically the highlight of my day. Then we went to Walmart to get more stuff. Then we drove home.Now I am waiting for school to get out so that i can talk to my dear friends Wendy and Megan!! Only 5 more minutes!!!!!
Tonight i am eating some delicious food from Yen-Ching for dinner. They have the best Chinese food around town. I am looking forward to that.
Hello.
welcome to my life.
haha, just kidding. that is such a generic way to start a blog.
well, ok. Today I was at school and i felt like blechh so i had to go home.
I didn't get to see Megan very much today, though. :(
oh, well. haha. But now i can only eat cheese and crackers or i fear i may hurl.
so, that's basically it for now.
